The Stronger Weapon Is

so its easier to love yourself
difficult to love someone else
the stronger weapon
is forgiveness

so its easier to fall in love
and tear it apart like a good bacon
the stronger weapon
is patience

hold out to know the truth
hold out and believe in you
take in and swallow my pride
everyday trampled and hide

so its easier to walk away in silence
to let go good memories
the stronger weapon
is steadfastness

in the same room
sharing the same air
thousands of miles away
sharing the same couch
watching you, fingers fidgeting
looking away, as I find myself.

i am a poet without rhyme and reason
seeing a season tipping his hat
once again... I am born again.
a better person walking away
waiting for love.

the stronger weapon
is love.

i loved you more than words can describe

my perception of the world had changed.
the mountains were higher and more magnificent
the ocean seemed boundless
the sky seemed limitless
time seemed endless

the stronger weapon
is...

it was easier for me to let go, despite how deep is my love.
it was easier for me to hang on, despite how deep my pain.

for all the things I so loved, I also hated.
sorry for being so complicated........



Create Destroy!!!
William Ortiz

No Walls

day by day
moment by moment
my walls become no walls at all.
sky blue and white clouds
tall buildings and lamp posts
big problems are not so big at all.

what seems big is so small
I can finally skip over
like we skip over a puddle of water.
could it be because of love?

found myself fighting a little longer
walking farther
climbing higher
drawing much more
editing photos better
becoming smarter
feeling wiser
I feel unlimited.

could this be love?

I think I am trusting again.
at this moment healing
even when I don't feel well.
at this moment healing
a dishonest answer from anyone
and an evil eye can't stop the flow.

I drew a red brick wall and I tore the sheet apart....

Thank you God, Robert, Friends, Family.


William Ortiz
Create Destroy!!!!

The Woman and The Bear

I had a dream...

I was walking in a corridor of high walls and ceilings
A voice led me to a wall, which opened and revealed
A woman with long red flowing hair
and she had an unrecognizable crystal face.

I was amazed at her beauty
purple robe,
chestnut wood panel walls
and ceilings

She lifted her hand and pointed
her finger behind me.
There stood a tall female bear
twice the height of me
gold and jewels over her head
Teeth glowing white
in her royal attire
full of power and strength....

I was lost with words
also trembling in fear
She was not friendly to me.

I was subconsciously self reflecting.

Who are you?

God of symbols and dreams?
A Friend from the past?
The Sun or The Moon?

Does it matter?

I am sharing my darkness to
anyone who listens..

Where do I go from here?

William Ortiz
CREATE DESTROY!!!

Who Are You?

Seems like its raining everyday
in every way
good intentions
and voices in my head
so I asked...
Who are you?

Seems like the clouds
rule the skies
because I am waiting
because I am undecided.

Voices from the edge of my bed
and from the stars
and in my dreams
and in the words of friends
and from strangers
and from the fallen leaves
in a summer's day.

No one knew I was listening
to keys and strokes
to signs and visions

so I asked...
Who are you?

Oh' God
My friend..

Who are you?

I came here to live
and I am not leaving here
so I can die.

Heavy rain on my skin
sun scorched
peel back and away
tear and bleed

I pray facing the sun
on the cloudiest and rainy days
some how, its rays penetrate
through the clouds and into my soul.

Who are you?

Why do you love me?

I am not worthy.

William Ortiz
CREATE DESTROY!

Paint The Town

Let's paint the town
run to places
spray cans in hand
paint on all the faces

statues be like

"Uh Uh"

I be like

"Yup"

All the lies
a friend can tell
All the truths
a friend can seek
just to break apart

selfish..

that's all I can say.

statues be like

"Uh Uh"

I be like

"Yup"

Your face
yellow now
marble and cold
no one to really hold.

Sad thing is.
You woke up like that.


 *Poetry through creative story telling. Non-factual
William Ortiz
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Love Suicide

10 hours to 1
5 days to 50
all seem the same
all seem nifty
losing sense
and sensibility
seem seclusion
was a way,
found you
1 year ago today,
I lived and lost before -
then i saw you
purple carnations
a foot in the door

either I run away
or I stay
I would find a way
or I remain
can't seem to
but it seems to
work in ways
I can't seem to explain

We found a river in a desert place

The enemy searched
seeking to destroy
I find myself living,
unharmed and in joy

so simple - not caring anymore
I walked through the door

Love Suicide

go all in
or nothing at all.


William Ortiz
Create Destroy!

I AM ONE

awake
and
self reflective
moving forward
with
no directive
I am like
no adjective
numb
in the waste up
obstructive


I had a dream

I hit the dog in between the eyes
because I felt unsafe
and I made it difficult
to heal the wounds of the attacker.

I made it run blindly
towards a wall
I made it cripple
and made it crawl

I am words
explicit
and
detail
oriented
I am clear
broken
and
in constant
reconstruction

I am words
unafraid
and
challenged
I am clear
warring against
the
constant
deconstruction

*****Pace like a broken record..

I am one

I am soft spoken

I am defensive

I am simple

Mad slick
with
verbal violence
why?

I am

I am

I am 


William Ortiz
Create Destroy!!!!!