Earth Moves

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rotating and rotating
and I rotate
arms stretched out
and facing the sky
snow falls and firecracker pops
I am on top of the world
as it rotate
around the sun
and in into your hearts.

rotating and rotating
and I rotate
as my brother push me
around and around
on this merry go round
letting go of the bars
to feel the flight
and power of spin
feel the energy within?

rotating and rotating
and I rotate
as I held my daughters hand
and spun her
round and round
hearing the laughter
and seeing the fear
and tears of joy
"Daddy do that again!"

rotating and rotating
and I rotate
with the earth
watching the sun rise
and fall
and the moon sneak peak
for a few hours
comets zipping through the
sky and I look and
marvel the greatness
the magnificent view
of this eagle lifting
a turtle into the sky

The Earth moves
and I look into the sky


I see you move God...

Philosphy of Push

the wind blew
and i leaned uncontrollably
so the physics is true
the meta in me
is prevalent in all of you
death leads to new
life leads to death
a cycle the universe perpetuates
to maintain and create change
to something better
from one civilization into something greater.

A burned house, death of a family member, a car accident, loss of your children, aging, and relationships ending. All and many more are samples of candles losing its light. So the push is to light another candle in its place.

Nature and human beings are one. The stars and our hearts are one. When I die I will be a part of the grand scheme of things.

Love will always prevail.

William Ortiz

Advice

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Let's look to these robot humans
will they give advice?
invisible chemicals
microscopic device
traveling through veins
will something ignite?
pseudo- passion
leading them away from the light

Let's look to these robot human
they indeed give advice.
I look to the east
will there be a price?
common cultural assumptions
seem to add to the vice
so I travel south
where there is freedom
from these robot humans.

Work all day, no play
pray all day, sin the next day
kiss one day, hate the next day
love one day, forget the next day
give one day, forget yourself the next day

As a tree, branches grows in different directions.

not one the same.

I am free.

William Ortiz

Stay or Run Away

if your happy and you know it
then you definitely will not cause harm
but if your hungry and in pain
we will fear and raise the alarm

if your in love and in debt
then run from your lover and don't fall in love
your sorrow will run over
like a truck sending a deer to the heavens above

if you run, if you hide
who can run as fast as you?
who can find you?
who is there to help you?

stay
stay
stay

if not.. run as far away
as you possibly can
before you cause more than psychological pain.

By: William Ortiz
www.createdestroy.net
www.fellapanik.com

We Are One

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electronic rivers
equalizers
mimic sound waves
flowing through
my veins
and my heart palpitates
can you feel the sound?
through my ears, within my heart.

The dessert sand waves
brushed by the strong wind of God
sin and pain
last breath
and my heart palpitates
can you feel the sound?
from the sun and into the eyes

I see light sounds
from you to me
from me to the ground
see the connect
the universe holds us down
hand with hand planked souls
listen to the preacher on the mount

like electricity running through
we flow.
faucet water spilling all over the floor
we flow.
wine glass smashing into the door
we flow.
birds swooping down to eat the worms
we flow.
bitter cold smacking you in the face
we flow.
you running away towards the west
we flow.

We are not meant to be apart
connect and lets go
rise and build to the sky
from the deep to the stars
we go.

saw you under the apple tree
catching the flow of gravity
over the hill away from everyone else
but I am near you through destiny
from the capitol to the river
your are all and energy
can you feel you next to me?

As we are part of Mr. Mastermind and Mrs. Trickery
mountains are codes and water, part of the design
We are like the Jews
our love will survive
the holocaust
some day I will exhaust
and will be one with the air I breathe
my love for you will flow endlessly.

like the banner waiving in the air
we flow.
the squirrel breaking through the shell
we flow.
the mail man knocking at the door
we flow.
lion running through the dry field
we flow.
rinsing my hands in the flowing river
we flow.
you looking down at me as we make love.
we flow.

the sun burns and the moon patterns
the sky
we were meant to love
to face the crime
against the flow to be happy
we go.

We are one.
Do you believe me?

William Ortiz
createdestroy
fellapanik

My Eye For Design

I love the way you look
you took
me
by
surprise
Feeling high, sky high
the stars
are
now
aligned
The sun rotating
shooting stars
are we flying?
waves
and
guitar strings
play the sound
and I am now rewound
pull back into the sea
and all I am right now
in love with design
The sky
falls
upon
the crooked of your spine

Tall
Tall
Tall

You seem lover
so tall
You give lover
your all

My sweet Other worldly design.


Thank you God

For him..

William Ortiz
www.createdestroy.net

Reasons To Live

Here contemplating
thoughts resonating
through my skin
and out into the open air
I stood quiet
staring out into the city scene
My thoughts loud
Even the spirits shift
to the other side of the room
Penthouse views
City lights
Everyone is so small
and I feel tall this time around
Alone in this calamity
My shell is not eye clean anymore.

I am not living loud
I wish I can love forever...

So much to do in such a short time
History will soon be me
Run in haste like Vangoh
Paint, Paint, Paint
I just really want to go home.

I love you girls..

William Ortiz
Fellapanik

Towards The East Sky High

Lights flicker
sounds coming through the wall
and the rain falls
and falls and falls
looking out the window
8 feet tall
glass from head to toe
and all I want to do is fly
to the east sky high
and valleys low
I just want to go
from this fenced in world
climb Mount Everest
to save the girl.

Down to reality
victim me from history me
to victorious me
change the design
by painting a sign
to realign
the times with my time

From Stop to Go
From South St to Liberty St
From Melancholy to a Mr. Fat Beat
indigenous drive across the country
from east to west then west to east
from NYC to Cali then to Timbuktu
is all I want to do

No more fences and restraints
from so called friends and soul mates

Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


Monster creeping up the wall
and down my spine
To desire evil upon the brother
is the last thing on my mind
But C is for cookies
good enough to eat
and I sure do eat
a batch of cookies
for this blue monster
within me
I need to run but no money
to obtain the dream
so instead I eat to feed
the brain
to maintain
What everyone wants but me.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

What matters most to all
don't matter to me
To climb Jacob's latter
is the last thing I need
To explore new ideas and new designs
fill my mind and heart
with philosophy
change the dark angel
within me
All I want to do is fly sky high
don't matter if I left everything behind
knowledge and wisdom
is to know that owning things
don't measure success
but to fulfill your life desire
even though second guessed
is what's best.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

Towards the east sky high
where dreams lie
for the picking
The one that stands and walk a mile
the one who travels and deny one self
are the first to bite into the happy fruit
internal joy
is knowing thyself
Them vision no longer apply
Your vision is what's making you thrive
With wisdom wings I will fly sky high.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

Looking out the window
Piscean tears and dreams
and the rain falls and falls and falls
out the window 8 feet tall
spread my wings to take flight
in my home projects 16 stories high.
My mind - suicide.

Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


William Ortiz
Fellapanik

I Truly Love You

So much to say
let it go today
say to my hand
if you can't say it to my face
say it to my feet
right now I am all grace
I am all ears
to help you release those tears

So much to say
in such a short time
time and space is not of friend of mine
so use me as a mic
and I will blast your love to the world
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone

I am the microphone
Entertain the world with your sorrows
Life is borrowed so take advantage
Don't wait for tomorrow

Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone

I truly love you...

Make me cry
and dry your eyes
Let me feel your pain
and wipe your stain
Let me fall
create a bridge for you to walk

Internal vociferation
cease

I truly love you...

No Time For Rest

Thought that I was sleeping?

NOT NOW.. NOT EVER..

I need money
I need food
I need insurance
I need education
I need a doctor
I need a car
I need my mother
I need my lover

and the city gave me a parking ticket
and the IRS takes my money
for what?
another war, to churches that hate
to the senators who don't relate
to republicans who likes to debate
and don't do anything to create
jobs, and health and education
for those who truly wish to live the American dream
before they get exhausted and die..

I need
and I work
I bleed
and wondered what is the worth

You have been deceived,
America is not all that its cracked up to be.
Your Uncle is dying and no one can afford to pay.

You All Points

You all points
You 77
and you 55
and you 28
spit out what ya'll ate
make room for me
as I run through the city
cracked crooked streets.
didn't care,
just all about the beats
and all that's free,
run you over with my creativity.
I will die soon.
It's OK, sink back into your narcissism
nothing really matters
especially what you do,
I am in a love-hate relationship
Your an Art Fascist? Will you silence me?
Hmmm..
because my wallets empty
and living my reality facade
pulling dreams out of the hat
Nintendo is the Universe
You all are the Duck
I am the one who shot you out of the sky
No more lies..
I am going to die and before I go
I will take you all with me...

I am 37

Crab Wars

You looking like a crab
as I swim surface level
seek to tear apart
with eyes wide apart
the essence that is sincere
to turn it around and around
to fit your mental schemes
Your living in this dream
reaching towards the light
to pull me into your darkness

I am at peace..
I am not the same..
You were conditioned to be guarded
I will not be a part of your pain.

Let go..
Be done..
You were down and out once
No need for war, put down the gun.

LOVE

Love
like a demon
like a diamond
like a dragon

I have issues with love..
can you see it?

Hate
the angel
the baby
the pomegranate

Show me the way into your heart.
I don't know which way to go.

In Search

Three in the sea
It's just like
you and me and me
one yelling at you
as the other whisper
love words in your ear.
How can we all go on like this
Choose me or me.
Better yet, choose we,
that's all I need.
Love me for me
The real and the dream.
The truth and the lie.
Come on! Don't be mean.
I live to see you go crazy.
Run little child! Run!
Away from me.
From the scary angel
and the pretty demon inside of me.
It's not you
It's just me
I can never satisfy you.
I am searching
within dreams.

Who Is God?

Who is He?
or is it She?...

Does it matter?
The character?
As long as we feel the better?
Are we fools to think
they can't read our minds?
these spirits that float
through these passages of time.
The universe unfolds
and Life unkind
We are energy going forth
we are emitting light
and shades of gray
Lit my lamp to keep the evil away
tested these philosophies
that comes my way
But God is God who am I to say?
That I am mighter and wiser
than the Creator?
the great I AM?
I see you through the cards
and God's gift release
and intensified my life
with a calling to serve.

I am not my own..
These cards of art
saw you without speaking a word.

I see you. Do you see me?
Transparent are now we.

You Know Who You Are

9 of Wands - Away
Knight of Wands- Facing Me
Death - Away
Ace of Swords - Away
Temperance - Away

The rain falls and it falls and so is your confidence on this man who is sure of himself. He seems to know all the answers and offers so many ideas for you to stay. This man, the traveler, the knight dressed up is sure of himself. But, are you sure of yourself? Is your path his path? Is your journey whether spiritual, financial, and physical is coinciding with what he is looking for to. So much hope and you lost yours.. Somewhere without your control, there will be change from the inside out. Here you are dry, parched because of this lack of support of who you really are inside. He has hold of his journey and maybe its time to get off the horse and start your own.. Your tired and without direction.

Tower - Away

There will be change and it will be out of your control. The heavens are opened up for you. Don't worry about what other people think. They see it.. But you must move on.

Nine of Swords - Facing me
Knave of Wands - Away

There is no rest for you. Self denial and avoidance of this issue will only prolong the desperation of release.

I felt this in my heart to continue to read, seeking resolution, an answer. Most of the time people already know the answer.

With love,
The Art Buddha

What The Card Say

1. Facing away: Knight of Swords.
2. Facing me: 10 of Wands
3. Facing me: Knight of Pentacles
4: Facing me: The Tower...

Felt discouraged lately. Every argument raised seems pointless. As I try to change the minds of the world, the more they retract. They don't understand that I can see the truth from a million miles away. I will never be a part of their world. Maybe because, I need to start to focus on the people that would accept me as I am. People want to cause harm, and I retract, get defensive and even possibly create arguments. Jobs are not easy to get as used to be, maybe because I have so many things to do in such a short time. I love life and I feel that I have so much to offer. Then why not complete something? What is holding me back when I know success is at the door. I think I need to let go of the past and focus on the future. My life now is not about love, its about personal happiness and me moving forward and accept the rewards of respect and honor that I have gained through my work. I take pride and I uphold myself with great integrity.. I personally believe that quality is important in all that we do. If we don't produce quality then we haven't really put our all in it. I take pride in quality. But something is out there even more important that the vain stuff on this earth. work for what? Quality for what? Money for what? It will all pass away. I see myself being a servant to so many people, pushing a society and culture up into the sky, and across the sea like moses did. Of course not physically and logically, but through inspiration, experience, knowledge of the spiritual things, I can take people higher than the mundane. Why do I feel confident and secure? I don't know. I am Mayan, I am a seeker, I am natural and good. Seek and you shall find. Even though I raise questions and break rules, and laws, raised by ancestors, I feel more free than ever.

My cards 10/12/2011

With U

Coming home Mr. Klimdt
gold colored memories
fair skin and all the vanities
upside down rainbows
as death hovers down
into the horizon
bones and all - around
the trickled dark blue view
nothing makes sense
but I feel true with you.

Hello Mrs. Picasso
your eyes are here and there
a reflection of my stare
red then black then bronze
my song is dear to the lost
guitars and all - around
vibration color from brazen lips
alleyways and tunnels
I will take this long trip.

With you..

Battle Cry

Money begets tar
So how far?
Got the keys you think?
But check your pocket.
Did you hear a Ca-chink?
But like The King did,
Punish the servant who put the keys in the ground
Thinking you saving your fortune for another round
You hid your treasure for a race
and but all the others were hungry too
hungry for that warm embrace
The grays became purple
killing Marie Antoinette
No better than Hitler
What you got is what you get..
Racial Conscience feed fear and depression
Here to tell a new story of resurrection
Poetry En Motion and CREATE DESTROY
The Highway and Steel Tracks in the sky
On a top open mission to deploy
Night Hawk Lips and Battle Tank Minds

Son, Where You At?

Digging deep into my brick roots
stop and one way signs
rule the town
with high crimes
No red light to protect
the innocent
You got the power behind the gun?
I got power behind the Son
I got power behind the Art
The Molder and Creator
Lift my soul up for all the haters
To shine above the rest
No need to fight no more
I won this war
My mind elevated, escalated
humbled by the experience with the Almighty
there is no more fear in me.
Shoot me with arrows and bullets
Deny me the passage, no need to be kind.
Other doors will open and you will be left behind!

It's not where you've been..
It's where your at!

RISE!!!

Sifting my fingers through the clouds
to let the sun shine through
In the black to long?
where do you belong?
son?.. daughter?..
thirst for the living water
Only some can quench
need to be relieved?
your mind got you diseased.
red daisies fill your skull, capacities
out into the eyes
then over your lids
pressure crack skull
making you feel void and null
red daisies out on to your lips
jewels bedazzle on your ear lobes
Cinco De Mayo
Your not the same anymore
Life turned you into dead art.
But I say. "LOVE" "LIVE" "RISE"
no more lies in your head.
no more walking amongst the dead.
"RISE!!!"

Like an eagle flying into the light
that I made through art,
sifting my fingers through the clouds
to let the sun shine upon you.

Remembered When

I remembered when
Child streaming laughter on repeat
playground spots full of tots
and parking lots
snow ball, and ice tunnels
momma and the mystery date
couldn't wait to see her happy..
sigh :/
river tears behind open doors
daddy sportin his caddy
crayons and markers
buildings and ships
architect youth
gunshots and wounds

I remember when....

Fake gold and frogs leaping
teeth as the pencil sharpener
cleaning dishes with my nails
healed a pigeon and saw it fly
out from the porch into the blue sky
16 stories high
transformers and sci-fi
I lied to her.. :)

Kid games till I die..

Who Is Fellapanik?

Mystery unique
looks like an average guy to me
but he got somethin
strange goin on in his closet
sounds comin through walls
design runnin from his mental faucet
visions of dreams
through the techno things
So much I can't comprehend
but the beauty is definitely within.

Why he hustle to express
capitalism don't rule the brain meat
I think cuz of this
makes people ponder and take a seat

Fellapanik

is walking art
is a language spoken
was dream come to realization
is an escape from the underground upside down
is indigenous no matter the tools he uses
has wings and will take you there.

The Art Buddha In Me

Saw the violence
of the greed
we battle the war
and forget the seed
art is the Buddha in me
hovering over mountain tops
see me flying through trees?
skip and dance through
branches
lighter than the heaviest flea
free style-in with my art tablet
1 and 2 and 3
bust a sound cough-in up a storm
You thought you be like metal project doors
Guns won't stop and will pierce through you
My art won't stop and will pierce through you.
This is that.. I just do!
The Art Buddha in Me will soon be in you.

little girl's and boy's smile
takes me miles and miles
vision of power and towers
how money can devour
their path to cause harm
to the grandfathers.
builders of nation
and culture creations
The Art Buddha in me
with ultimate dedication
bust a pic to voodoo you boo boo!
Puttin on your full metal jackets, but you know
Guns won't stop and will pierce through you
My art won't stop and will pierce through you.
This is that.. I just do!
The Art Buddha in me will soon be in you.


Chickens run
cuz you got the gun
ego up
but you all corrupt
you don't see past the midst
to the higher calling
you keep walking your walk
and don't see you falling
the sky is lit
but there is only one street lamp
Here to smack reality
in your peaceful calamity
Guns won't stop and will pierce through you
My art won't stop and will pierce through you.
This is that.. I just do!
The Art Buddha in me will soon be in you.

Straight Jacket

Seek and you shall find
me
kindly
I push you away like you push me
white on skin
tight bind like kin
Tiger stance
against the demon flow
from Mr "Always On The Go, Yo"
can't trust in you to finish what you started
cheated me by not sharing your luck
Dude.. You suck!
So I tuck
my shirt in to travel east
where all the minorities feast on fashion
and art and fruit tarts.
Dilapidated buildings is the inspiration
Steel tracks above city streets
make the scene unique.
Miss my city days
Now that I know you
I unwrap and go my own way...

Danger!!

passion grip like dogs in heat
took my virginity with the rhythm of beats
DJ flows and we leap
and hit-ted the bed concrete
hidden valleys between garbage dumpsters graffiti walls
made love like batman and robin
in the underground cave, bathroom stall
love is a four letter word in the works
between you and me we made us on our turf
bond like crazy glue
nothing can tear us into two
and the music flow from headset to toe
hand pressures causes our juices to flow
I am lost
You are found
The stars stare
through the metal steps
The lights flicker and passes by
red and blue and white
then peace
discombobulated without rhyme and reason
love is..

(In my robot voice)

Danger Robinson!!
Machine intellect mental instructor
flesh robot designed to passion fruit fuck
companion design relationship un-tucked.

Fat Jesus

Had this dream
fat Jesus smacking little boy
saying "Gay no, here's a magazine."
I crucified the christ
Because he bleed lard
and hated the retard
Oozing cellulite
and blowing up like dynamite
firecracker
He was the smacker
I couldn't live the life
I was meant to be
Cuz fat Jesus was to greedy
Serve him and Serve Him
and I was like "I am in sin..
In Sin.. In Sin.. No Sun for me"
I flow all the nasty
or did I read him wrong the first time
He is God Congeniality
Friendly to the lost
not like all the hypocrisy
That these pharisees did to me.

So all you fat Jesus' leave me be
He is the way,
not the one you showed me.
OKayeee!

Too Loud For Mista Neighba'

Beats off the wall
bouncing the paintings off the wall
the dining room doin' the wop
and the music won't stop

And I just watched
Mrs. Rhythm and Mr. Bass
and Electronic Jr
Run out in haste
through the walls
Mr. Neighba' yellin' at me
powder fist pounding on his walls

I don't know
I am Rat, and you all are dopes...
Ruin my groove,
at least let me finish all that I gotta do!!!

Hold Me Down

How much does it hurt to love someone and that person was unable to love you back. Letting go is the hard part, and we need all the support to move on from the pain, no matter where it stems from.

Vagabonds

Music inspires me to write.. It charges me up and tunes me in to places I never thought I can go. I love sounds and break beats. Something unusual, music that doesn't force me to think one way but gives me the ability to roam and examine. Music is my own high..

Its Quiet In Midtown

I am not normal. Immediately I want to write a poem or something off the wall instead the usual blah, blah.. Today was new to me and everyday afterwards it will be even newer. I finished my website. www.fellapanik.com. I am about to publish my book. I just created an outfit for my buddy, to support him a drag competition, I helped a family out during the Midtown/Central Pa flood crisis. All in the past 4 days. Everyday is new to me. Thank GOD, who ever you are... So my year isn't over. Oh'.. If I die tonight, leave the red glitter stuck in my finger nails.

Which one

Which one

Not The Victim

parable me
miserable you
feeling disconnected
by the words of a few

Stained glass
cloudy gray you
Think you got me all figured out
by the words of a few.

A flying seagull
Philly pigeon you
Collaboration ceased
By the words of a few

Me For Dinner?

Imagine I be a bowl
of chicken meal
filled with metal beaks
and dry corns.

See the picture?

Eat me.

Reconstruction

I am trying to break free
I need a job
and the system doesn't like me
So easy to pull the race card
life is too hard
heart ache after another
looking for someone to love me for me
and here when I think all is down packed
I got traded for another tea

Love
So hard to keep, so easy to give
So easy to let loose
the passions and the noose
create and destroy
nothing seems right any more

I feel complex full of emotion
In a fish tank now
floating to the top, less motion
seeking food and all I hear
is tapping on the glass walls
All they could do is stare
trying to capture my attention
But I am hungry
I need gutter change
I talk but can't walk the walk
my friend
floating still
my mind races towards the hill
where the horizon awaits
and the moon rises and the sun waves goodbye.

Tempted to pull out the cards
blame everyone else for my woes
But it gets harder and hard
when your friends sell souls

sell outs
cop outs
you stink
amoebas
hyenas

Reconstruct.

I am under construction.

Bloom.................

Rainbow is the color

Concrete steps in the east direction
Scrapes and burns
warned out shoes
conjured hopelessness within my soul
the goals
and dreams
seems to be distant like Bridgeport
to the Long Island Sound
grounded by the usual
can't be casual
blunt and obvious
but the color folks still oblivious
cater to the color
cater to the heritage
but the world needs the now
not homage to the ancestors
Seeing flags of pride
the demise of their own fall

Now open your eyes
Let your spirit color fly
Let your soul shine through
Your not indigenous to God
Let the godly ways seem indigenous to you.

Away the coats
of flesh and muscle
all the hustle and hustle
tires the chuck meats within the guts
Legs torn in two directions
follow the heart beats
featured DJ Mind
Since the beginning of time
the electronic age existed through Neurons
and flesh machines
so I seek these
the spirit walkers
the inspirational talkers
that lights my path to enlightenment
tired of the false profits
and fake artists
selfish to serve themselves
in a hungry world.
Barter if you don't have money
We on a mission to save the girl.