Reasons To Live

Here contemplating
thoughts resonating
through my skin
and out into the open air
I stood quiet
staring out into the city scene
My thoughts loud
Even the spirits shift
to the other side of the room
Penthouse views
City lights
Everyone is so small
and I feel tall this time around
Alone in this calamity
My shell is not eye clean anymore.

I am not living loud
I wish I can love forever...

So much to do in such a short time
History will soon be me
Run in haste like Vangoh
Paint, Paint, Paint
I just really want to go home.

I love you girls..

William Ortiz
Fellapanik

Towards The East Sky High

Lights flicker
sounds coming through the wall
and the rain falls
and falls and falls
looking out the window
8 feet tall
glass from head to toe
and all I want to do is fly
to the east sky high
and valleys low
I just want to go
from this fenced in world
climb Mount Everest
to save the girl.

Down to reality
victim me from history me
to victorious me
change the design
by painting a sign
to realign
the times with my time

From Stop to Go
From South St to Liberty St
From Melancholy to a Mr. Fat Beat
indigenous drive across the country
from east to west then west to east
from NYC to Cali then to Timbuktu
is all I want to do

No more fences and restraints
from so called friends and soul mates

Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


Monster creeping up the wall
and down my spine
To desire evil upon the brother
is the last thing on my mind
But C is for cookies
good enough to eat
and I sure do eat
a batch of cookies
for this blue monster
within me
I need to run but no money
to obtain the dream
so instead I eat to feed
the brain
to maintain
What everyone wants but me.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

What matters most to all
don't matter to me
To climb Jacob's latter
is the last thing I need
To explore new ideas and new designs
fill my mind and heart
with philosophy
change the dark angel
within me
All I want to do is fly sky high
don't matter if I left everything behind
knowledge and wisdom
is to know that owning things
don't measure success
but to fulfill your life desire
even though second guessed
is what's best.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

Towards the east sky high
where dreams lie
for the picking
The one that stands and walk a mile
the one who travels and deny one self
are the first to bite into the happy fruit
internal joy
is knowing thyself
Them vision no longer apply
Your vision is what's making you thrive
With wisdom wings I will fly sky high.


Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.

Looking out the window
Piscean tears and dreams
and the rain falls and falls and falls
out the window 8 feet tall
spread my wings to take flight
in my home projects 16 stories high.
My mind - suicide.

Everyone but me wants to stay
I just want to run away
towards the east sky high.


William Ortiz
Fellapanik

I Truly Love You

So much to say
let it go today
say to my hand
if you can't say it to my face
say it to my feet
right now I am all grace
I am all ears
to help you release those tears

So much to say
in such a short time
time and space is not of friend of mine
so use me as a mic
and I will blast your love to the world
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone

I am the microphone
Entertain the world with your sorrows
Life is borrowed so take advantage
Don't wait for tomorrow

Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone
Your not alone

I truly love you...

Make me cry
and dry your eyes
Let me feel your pain
and wipe your stain
Let me fall
create a bridge for you to walk

Internal vociferation
cease

I truly love you...

No Time For Rest

Thought that I was sleeping?

NOT NOW.. NOT EVER..

I need money
I need food
I need insurance
I need education
I need a doctor
I need a car
I need my mother
I need my lover

and the city gave me a parking ticket
and the IRS takes my money
for what?
another war, to churches that hate
to the senators who don't relate
to republicans who likes to debate
and don't do anything to create
jobs, and health and education
for those who truly wish to live the American dream
before they get exhausted and die..

I need
and I work
I bleed
and wondered what is the worth

You have been deceived,
America is not all that its cracked up to be.
Your Uncle is dying and no one can afford to pay.

You All Points

You all points
You 77
and you 55
and you 28
spit out what ya'll ate
make room for me
as I run through the city
cracked crooked streets.
didn't care,
just all about the beats
and all that's free,
run you over with my creativity.
I will die soon.
It's OK, sink back into your narcissism
nothing really matters
especially what you do,
I am in a love-hate relationship
Your an Art Fascist? Will you silence me?
Hmmm..
because my wallets empty
and living my reality facade
pulling dreams out of the hat
Nintendo is the Universe
You all are the Duck
I am the one who shot you out of the sky
No more lies..
I am going to die and before I go
I will take you all with me...

I am 37

Crab Wars

You looking like a crab
as I swim surface level
seek to tear apart
with eyes wide apart
the essence that is sincere
to turn it around and around
to fit your mental schemes
Your living in this dream
reaching towards the light
to pull me into your darkness

I am at peace..
I am not the same..
You were conditioned to be guarded
I will not be a part of your pain.

Let go..
Be done..
You were down and out once
No need for war, put down the gun.

LOVE

Love
like a demon
like a diamond
like a dragon

I have issues with love..
can you see it?

Hate
the angel
the baby
the pomegranate

Show me the way into your heart.
I don't know which way to go.

In Search

Three in the sea
It's just like
you and me and me
one yelling at you
as the other whisper
love words in your ear.
How can we all go on like this
Choose me or me.
Better yet, choose we,
that's all I need.
Love me for me
The real and the dream.
The truth and the lie.
Come on! Don't be mean.
I live to see you go crazy.
Run little child! Run!
Away from me.
From the scary angel
and the pretty demon inside of me.
It's not you
It's just me
I can never satisfy you.
I am searching
within dreams.

Who Is God?

Who is He?
or is it She?...

Does it matter?
The character?
As long as we feel the better?
Are we fools to think
they can't read our minds?
these spirits that float
through these passages of time.
The universe unfolds
and Life unkind
We are energy going forth
we are emitting light
and shades of gray
Lit my lamp to keep the evil away
tested these philosophies
that comes my way
But God is God who am I to say?
That I am mighter and wiser
than the Creator?
the great I AM?
I see you through the cards
and God's gift release
and intensified my life
with a calling to serve.

I am not my own..
These cards of art
saw you without speaking a word.

I see you. Do you see me?
Transparent are now we.