The Puppeteer

you know puppets have no brains.
their dedication are strings,
eyes are cameras,
and their bodies, a costume.
the puppeteer is a thief and a liar.
your heart is not where it should be.

babies watching as you are consumed with hate.

I see you.

I Liked It

western sun
meets
eastern ethics

blackened
by a
different cold
and a
different heartless
fashioned myself
in leather
metal rings
sensitive nipples
and you pulled
with your teeth
and I thought
I would bleed
your love meant
nothing to me
gave me pain
as you choke
so that I
could not breath

saw me staring
in your eyes
as you choked me
and I could not breath

saw me staring
in your eyes
as you fucked me
and I could not breath...

William Ortiz

You Be Like The Devil

Ha!
(pause)

(grin at the audience)

devil grin
see you in sin
laughing at dem
all dem that don't make sense

Ha!
(pause)

(freeze and stare away to no where)

angel wings
shifting the four corners
dusting the filth away
all them that make sense
they stay

all them you laugh
don't make sense
staph infection
all over
screaming
black heart
you got there.

Love me, No?
I don't make sense
you talk
about you
to other people.
Don't you know?

Broken Like A Record

broken like a record
broken
broke

Palpitating
ba boom
ba
ba boom

feel you ki- kiss
kissing my neck
touch
touch
touching me

and I fall down
downward
away
away from this pain
heaven forsaken
hell acceptance

cracked like a broken vintage lamp
beads and
no light
no sun
no gun

scratch
scratch
scratch

you burn like an open wound
within my heart
I sway to the sound
piano play
rapid and deep
faster and faster

bring the camera
and watch me crazily
wet wide eyed
mascara for blood
oozing from the base of my eyes

You did this to me.

death is your love for me.

death
death
death

you
you did
you did this to me.

William Ortiz

Come Home Prayer

Skyscraper high projects
steppin out from concretes
like spirit trees
glass falling, all these people runnin
bricks falling, people falling
flying like squirrels in mid air

I can't help but to stare
waive my guns in the air
shoot them down like Nintendo's duck hunt

pehew pehew

see my prayer B B gun
shot you son

baby, I got you son
falling straight down from the clouds
you into my arms.
dilapidated, no shit!
constipated mouth
standing here stout
here you are all pout ited...

I am here all relaxed ited
I am here all relieved ited..
I got no pain
now that my baby boy
is home was diggin through my fridge
sittin on the couch

can you dig?

He was diggin in my fridge

can you dig?

He said with ham and cheese samwich in hand..

"Miss you pops."

Itch Itch Bite Bite

Desert crack dry skin
parchin, scratchin
itch itch bite bite
I can't tell you how
to let go live lite
can't force you to love me

Sorry,
the barer of bad news
run your life
mind control
yes she stole
your under mind control
gossip
gossip
sippin on soup
dippin on a coupe de tat
and now you have no control

What could be a lover
now a hater
What could be a friend
now an enemy

All them lies gone to ya' head.

Desert crack dry skin
parchin, scratchin
itch itch bite bite

itchin, itchin, bit'in, bit'in

now you say "Help Me God! My mind now gone!"

You did this to yourself.


What arrows come my way
goes back to you.

But My God loves me...

I know He loves you too.

You Confuse- cious

Why you confused?

All you want to do is rhyme
But no order to my sanity
while your looking at me
I look back at you

No
Not insane
Yes
Don't have the time

Alright - I get it,
your not mine

Alright - I let it
yours in mine

So when its done,

LEAVE

I got things to do.

What?

why you look at me confused?  lol...


William Ortiz
CREATE DESTROY!!

A Walk In The Dark

Dart to the scene
Chart the mechanic's scratch
turntables
dark nights
sex plights
moon lights

I walk
street lights flicker
prostitutes hollar
no money in the American Dollar

Alone

I step to the rhythm
not after my own heart
but the heart of my lover

the so many lovers..

hover over my bone
chompin on stone
broken finger
blood drippin
as the night lingers

art kung fu
yin and yang
shoving paint brushes
in the holy putang
build a hut
for what?

all is vain

I walk
street lights flicker
Business man hollar
took me by the hand to..


William Ortiz
Create Destroy!!

Crazy Claw Monster

PLEASE PLAY:


its raining outside.
you don't have to let me in
even though you want me to
let me in you.
let me drive you crazy,
senseless monster
in your closet.
banging on your doors,
looking at you as you walk by.

i am here.

its raining outside
and you like it when I stare.
dream me as I am living to see you.

don't be paranoid..

i just want to hug you,
because you hate me.
you want me to learn a lesson,
you want me to die,
because I am crazy.

death? ha! I will live forever.
whether you like it or not.
i will climb mountains
as you hate me.

i got claws
and I cling

its raining outside
will you not let me in?

in your skin you see growth
it speaks your name as you scratch
it calls out to you when death is beckoning

and you sit.
staring out through the glass doors.
Its raining,
The sun is piercing through,
and the clouds parting.

See me clearly?
forgive me - why not?

me crazy monster?
claws, eyelashes batting,
teeth gnarling
furry light blue heart
pounding and pounding
pressing against my internal chest cavity
stomping like a big ole' baby

let me in!!!

COLD FISH!

AAARRRRGH!!!

COLD FISH!

bite bite... itch itch...

William Ortiz
Create Destroy!!!

No Death

PLEASE PLAY:

i ran
you stayed behind
i cried
you stare and wondered why
i climbed
you remain below

i am alone

selfish thoughts

NO

i am alive
you decided to die
i am born again

you were drowned



in the holy river


NO

when will the bow break?
when will the water rise
to reach over the damn?

time to die in your arms?

NO

i am Harrisburg
i am pure in heart
though i sin i live without regret
i will die anyway

Legion

all of you

and you

and you
 
and you

and you

leave me alone.

dead bird flying
crashing into open air
crumbling down into glistening oil tarred street
shaking uncontrollably
till hummer zoomed right over it.

i find myself living another day
to do art.

No Hocus Pocus

seem to be the focus
in someone's hocus pocus
heh?

seem to be the target
mental laser beam sparked it
and?

seem to be the crack pipe
Come On!! Smoke my hype!

Art Argh!!!

vintage gun smoke in the air
smellin' like dragon's blood
photo of rat brain
broke out the cheese
came all over your face

Enough with your violence!

free to speak
free to dream
free to love
free to share
free to express
free to give
free to hold back
free to hate
free to build

I step back,
I look forward

I stepped back once again,
and still looking forward.

Go ahead!
You be you and I be me.

We are free!

I will love you forever..


William Ortiz
CREATE DESTROY!!!

BOOP!!

Ten thousand pieces
and the world moves on
windshield glass
along the highway

and I ride and ride hard
wind upon my face
and he lays there dead next to me

and I drive and drive hard
across the river
and into the front steps of the capitol
crashing over

and

boop!
a body flew to the left

and

boop!
a body flew to the right

and

boop!
heavy man all over my hood

I am definitely misunderstood

Boop

The dead man told me to ride and I rode hard
through the lawn
and knocked all the pawns
uncovered the FMLA rights on the wall
broken the urinals in the bathroom stalls

I shot the conventional sheriff with frustration

tired of begging
tired of running
tired of waiting

Boop!
The wall of Jericho will fall!!!

William Ortiz
Create Destroy!!!

Take Me To Where I Grow

I climb to there
where here is nowhere
and I is home
and you stretch your hands
to meet me
to pull me
there.

I climb to there
where you are somewhere
and inspire
native dance around fire
like trees prancing
swaying I lean
and sway to you

What is this power?
this fire?
purple and light blue flames
I am lost and found
and I spin round and round
lost in your words
eyes green then yellow
your sound
your sweat
your beat
every step

Thunder and spiders
no more..

I love you.

Good Demons & Bad Angels

PLEASE PLAY:


Too many good demons
good feel
good sound
giving me good disease
feel'in all relieved
good touch
good devilish lick
pass the flick

Too many bad angels
holding me back
telling me no
protection
to secure resurrection
the end times
don't matter now

Got these demons
they are with white wings
gold skin
feet as construction claws
deconstruct me
breaking the feel goods down
enjoying every single drop
making my head go round

Weeee!!
round and round I go
on this Merry God Round!
feeling all good
this is all I know.

Lov'in my demons!

right now

what I

really

really

want

is you..

William Ortiz
CREATE DESTROY!

Real World Dreamer

PLEASE PLAY:

Mr Dream lay quietly
when my eyes are wide open
during self preservation
He keeps to himself
the secrets of my heart
as I reach my destinations

I love him
This Mr Dream

When I wake
When I sleep
When I brush my teeth

Rinsing monster lashes
Batting them to make them dry
Eyes glistening
sharp teeth reveal
as I dream in this real

real

real

world.


I dream
I am on a mission
to create
beautiful exotic things

I eat people
lick their bones
whip my furry hair
and I laugh and laugh
in this

real

real

world.


William Ortiz

Composition of Balance

Demons and dragons
Semen and egg cells
Paint the sky
Life and circles
Round and round
The gravity of two
Circling the air as if
They were meant to do
Connect and tear apart
Attraction
Devil in disguise
Too late to act all wise
You fell in love
With me and now
You can't let go

You fought it
Can't deny it
The power of

Love

You fought it
Can't deny it
The power of

Hate

Battle between
A sword and shield
The sun and the moon
Paint the earth
With reflection and rays
I strike with my energies
And you reflect the power
Creating seemingly
Beautiful rays.

William Ortiz

My Energy

PLEASE PLAY:

love me? No?
love me not
just hit the spot
lost the love aura
lost the fire aura
lost the soul glow
that made me brighter
than the day before.

Your a tall building
casting a shadow
my thought process cease
as you persist to restrain
the creative juices from flowing

But now.

I am glowing
I am glowing

I am above the lies of love
your source weak
make the world bleak
I see the pain
in the mud you maintain

I am the law
my heart my domain

Love me? Yes?

I don't believe you anymore.
See the glowing door?

My energy ever present
100 miles per hour
driving and driving
into the street light
out into the summer river
rust, decay, death becomes our love
I am lifted to the sky

I am glowing
I am glowing

My heart surrounded by flames
crowned with glory.

Never Later 420

PLEASE PLAY:

Hmm, I'll do it later
it's 420 everyday
runaway
electric car
face full of scars
staring at the stars

waiting
playing
laughing
jumping
sitting
smoking

waiting

wash and repeat
your walk like this shirt

"Will someone out there support me!"

patiently you

play
laugh
jump
sit
smoke

I wait

patiently

and the earth spins
losing track of time

"Oh. No! It's Hammer time!"

crack the whip and no fruit
simple rhymes and no justice
baby words
smoked out
all too slow

But Wait!
this is the best part
where my healing rhymes
comes from is my dope head

can't go to bed
I can only dream..

I am

waiting
playing
laughing
jumping
sitting
smoking

smoking

smoking


"God Da*mit! Why the f*kc you don't support me!"

"Can't you see I will make you big!"




William Ortiz

Elevator Music To The Future

PLEASE PLAY:

The earth calls out
"Come hither creative ones!"
"step out into the stars
spin me like the record!"

"ha ha ha! Weeee!"

As the earth feel the spin
We knows time is not something to play with


Here on earth
minutes are seconds
entertainers
are the elevator music
the dope beats and rhymes
take me to another time
No time to rewind
I was called to spin..

We are called to spin
make elevator music
to take these people
anywhere else but home
building music out of stone

This is the house
that the creatives built

make the mind rise to the next level
got you all mesmerized just for a second
making all the difference
As the creatives making the best of it

The voyeurs watch us like they watch sex
so stimulating they lost track of time..

Time to work fools!!
Go to work bang your heads
then die...

If you ain't got love
because of us
the earth will definitely
waste your time!

William
Create Destroy!!!

Up There With Da Gods

PLEASE PLAY:

Run don't hide
fight the good fight
up there with the gods
in you got all their might

We are not alone

Can't grip me down
disease free mind
decrepit body
deformed hands
blood stains on my feet
20 20 visions of the future
blind present
down to earth like a peasant
ruler of kingdoms
machine guns and axes
words cut the souls deep
sticks and stones
won't put me to sleep
eyes wide open

Mountain top view
though down here on the mic

We are not alone

up there with the gods
though down here on the mic

made like the image of who?
mom pop look alike
genetic curses
black feathered pig decay
Latin pig roast day

can't sway the mind
roast the bastard as I shake off the dust
Spiritual snake stance starts with the mindset
then out through the fingers
into the enemy, who?
the invisible over rated

fill the blank life
hard knox kid
from the east


William Ortiz

Be Still

PLEASE PLAY:



Be still.. He said..

leaned against the wind
as per instruction
waves crashing upon my legs
a form of reconstruction
I will be still.

hold on and focus
pulling energies into this one thing
that changes everything.

This will definitely
change my life ultimately

I must be still
when everyone
else is moving on
when all seems lost and gone

He knows I like to dream

Be still..He said...

God give me strength
I am fluid
I cannot be contained
I am slippery fish
in the palm of a little child
I flow with the wind
and fall like the leaves
no one knows where I will be
and where I will land

Love me like
you love water
Hold me like
a glass would
The Universe
is a large cup
and I can't find my place
I am stuck
in the darkness of space
So pick me out from the stars
put me in the head of the line
to know my destiny,
to know my place in your kingdom.

Thank you God!

I will love you forever because you made the universe my home.
I feel connected with you despite your omnipresence.
I know the planets need my warmth and are relying on me.

Love

William Ortiz
The Gay, Fatherly, Artistic, Fish

Titter Tatter

PLEASE PLAY:



So I flow
and the monkeys know
that I be swinging better than Tarzan
and the bananas bounce
and bounce
and bounce
to the good beat
and the tippity tappity feet
goes

God knows

When I dance
I dance in my mind
then in my eyes
smile lifting the clouds
feeling all rewound
tippity tappity like a wound
up toy
Oh' boy!

God knows

I am lost without Creativity
it calls out
made a round about
punched me out
in
one
two
three
I am out n about

God knows

He loves me so
watch me dance like so
love like so
be like so
He let's the cat out of the bag
and I am His ultimate fag hag!

1 two

Yay God!

3 four

Yay God!

5 six

Will always love God

Titter Tatter
stirrin up the batter
molding me and baking me
letting me free
to just be me!

Are you... You?

He definitely taught me to be

just this: FREE


William Ortiz

Made to Design

I was made to design
to destroy dreams
by making them into reality.

Will you love me

I want you to so love me
that you will share this cup
It runs through me

A new chapter
revisited a thousand times.

it feels so good.

I am lost

with or without you.


William Ortiz

Tap Tap Time

knocked out but
by the count of love
talkin all that jazz
sorry nothing mattered
but your lips keep flap
tap tap
my feet goes
and my toes knows
how much I love you
and how the beat goes

So this song goes
and goes
Everyone goes
Your momma went
And now you know
Journey journey
Is what your about
Rise rise revolution
Crawl then walk to full bloom

My diseases your resolution..

I am sick with love
I am sick with love
I am sick with love

Do you know what love is/?

then its time to go


Tap tap..

LO
VE

William Ortiz

My Own? No!!

What is your own?
Design made to captivate
rectangles and square
confused by the circles
origination
not from masturbation
not from delusion
not from seclusion

Columbus falling off the edge
Santa Maria no sex episode
on national TV

What is your own?
Your children? No!
Your heart? No!
Your home? No!
Your art?

Ahhhhhhh....

But NO!!!

I am an empty pocket when I die.

Selah...

I'm Running My Time

Time machine
keeps ticking
without permission
hands moving
unforgiving
without justification

without who?..

I don't need

I am.. without who?..

I don't need

I am.. without...

relentless
pushy
unforgiving
greed
narcissism

create a chasm
a fissure for your own
personal gain
and drain
without giving back
to those who look up to you.

without who?..

I don't need

I am.. without who?..

I don't need

I am.. without..


Stick your hands in the hole in the wall
hoping to find a prize
greedy trip to the other side
your mind wants the money and the fame
thinking that man was made

to give me what I need
as long as I gave up pussy.
to give you all that you desire
as long as I gave up my freedom.

As long as you define the path to be
I will always feel less than what I am destined to be.

I see the endless possibilities
do you see what the stars see?
There is no hope
between the legs and strength of a man?

Be above the influence..

I AM WITHOUT WHO?

YOU!

I don't think it matters anymore..
My time is not yours.

Time machine
keeps ticking
without permission
hands moving
unforgiving
without justification

Dancing In The Rain

Away taken away
by the mundane
happy with the money
walking like zombies.
it rains and rains
yet everyone hides
it rains and rains
but every one hides.

On the way to work
banging my head like the rest
cents per second
check given bi weekly
It rains and it rains
outside where
the vultures feed
the dead quiver
as its pierced by hungry beaks

Here I am looking
out the window looking
and it sits there
waiting, waiting
as I maintain the mundane in me.

But I will flee this day
through the field of vultures
through the rain and dance
once again.

Took the day off to maintain
the change in me.


William Ortiz

The Song of Let Go

Image by Fellapanik

PLEASE PLAY:

I love you
and
love you
and
love you

Distant like Timbuktu
Tree trunk
up-rooted
by the clouds
pillow soft hands
stretched down
to pull
us apart
You are the earth
I am the tree
no rivers
no flowers
no lake
no ocean
no leaves
no stretch
into the sky

Why would I?

Sun beaming
I am burning
You are still
You will remain

God sees
the pain
and takes me
home.

William Ortiz

F*cking Son of God

PLEASE PLAY:



So you scrape
in the beginning
the bottom of the plate
saw a reflection
of of you sinning
falling off of My grace

Or did you?

Shattered glass
in a million pieces
the Universe with a million stars
The palm with a million scars
tell tale of future and pain
coffee stain, but all your teeth remain

What have you done?

I am me, float
I am he, the goat
I am she, the goddess
I am it, the third eye

piecing the sky down into your room
gloom! what gloom!
10 swords upon your back
and you don't know what to do.

You are, bound
You are, double minded
You are, the troll
You are, yang missing the yin

Stare at the wall for five minutes
shake, shake uncontrollably
the incredible terrible
please let go..

I am here. I love you so..

Fucking Son of God!

TURN TO ME FOR MY BURDEN IS LIGHT AND MY YOKE!! EASY!

Rising Sun Rising Moon

PLEASE PLAY:



rising sun
horizon lit
torched the Africa wood
blood streaming
Amazon cheap literature
migraine wishing my life was more

money in my dreams
money in my pocket
money in my hand

Washington in my back pocket
then in my hand
then in the machine

Food
Water

sex
drugs

heart skipping a beat

stroke
disease

all the things Washington bought me

whore
slave


rising moon
light trail
cold wet concrete
the dark Africa man
waving goodnight
driving home sweet home
technology rise revolution
Philosophy at our fingertips
I felt decomposition
in my position
upward is my premonition

i dream -

good night Washington!

Sugar Free Soda

PLEASE PLAY:



fizzle fizzle
no sugar in our fa-shizzle
stamina out the window
then got hit by a car
flat like a dead cat
busted like a deer
that got hit by rusty old truck

Yes this papi is all stuck
WTF!!

Reached out for some soda
All I could do is appreciate this love
At least
It's sugar free..

My Lawd

PLEASE PLAY:



Never thought
all the things you fought
kind of taught
scratch n' sniff
banana peel on the ground
did all the tricks

ideas rampant like rampage
I need to maintain
help me out Lawd
cuz I need to remain
and prove themz wrong
that you do love all gay in muazee me.

anywayz


back to the truth

I don't need to scrap
I don't need to lack
I don't need to zap

When I got the Laaaawwwd on my back

Yes! I got the Laaawwwwd on my back

Yes! Them screamin' ladies are demons

Yes! Them fingers up in the air.

"OH NO HE DIDN'T JUST DO THAT!"

Free style'n indigenous rat
from the train through the tunnel
and into the light

Daddy!

Look at me!

I is real smart!

William Ortiz

Detached

art by fellapanik - all rights reserved


PLEASE PLAY:


monster crime
fell in love
out from the ledge
and into the abyss

what is right
you've made it wrong
excited to see the light
you made in me
breaking my mind
tearing me apart
reading you
words and sentence
so broken, I can't find sense

alas free
from your hold
your religion
and two face
one sad and one plain
your a reflection
hungry for affection

no one wants you

need validation?

every wants you.. happy now?

ego centric
ego tastic
ego life plastic

walk around barbie smile

I am fellapanik

I don't need your black
I don't need your yellow
I don't need your white
I don't need your brown

why?

when I got all the best colors in my pallet.

I loved you and now your soo gone...

Monster love
for purple
and the green
and the red
the bloody freak'in red
dripping red
I cheated on you a long time ago
I fell in love with rainbows
prisms
chrome and gun metal

Wrongly accused of the monster crime
was blind but now I see
I see you down
in the abyss
without me...

Crossing The River

Saw you there
across the way
Sun down
upon you down
burning up down
you lit up
glowing down
on the other side
Tall trees
sway away
leaving a trail of leaves
behind

Saw you there
I need to run
you know
there. where you are
there out where
the grass scorched
and the scorpions
run towards
the water towards me
here

I need to take off this shirt, and let loose the fins within my heart
swim and glide towards you,
there
to love
you..

No time for meeting me halfway
My mind is already there
ready for you.

Took Me By Surprise

clock ticking forward
without permission
ticking and ticking
seconds creating confusion
but understanding in minutes
have we come to the conclusion.

now that he knows..

what's in the dark
is now in the light
saw sick profusion
in the concrete seeping
weeds, creeping to divide
concrete blocks and mortar bricks
he made my heart skip a beat
when I saw him fading a way
into the dark

now that he knows..

felt the dark creep
from him to me

alone

alone

as he walked away...

my face down in dismay
then he turned his head and said.

I love you.